Sunday, January 25, 2009

the wonders and the heartbreak of a newborn baby girl

anna is coming up on 2 weeks of age. 2 weeks! i actually can't believe time is already going that fast.

dave and i are loving our new family member. i'm finding my bonding moments with her in feedings, in how she recognizes my hold/voice/touch. dave enjoys his bath time with her, his time holding her after a feeding, even his late-night diaper changing. she is clearly going to be daddy's little girl, which is just how it should be. i adore watching them together.

the new father has also been an amazing husband for the past two weeks. not that he isn't a fabulous hubby every other day... but he's been especially fabulous since the birth. all his time off was spent trying to make me more comfortable, take care of the household tasks, etc. -- anything to make sure that when he goes back to work, i am able to physically be on my own. he definitely succeeded there. sadly he has to return to work in the morning... but we're grateful to his office for allowing for the extra time off to help me out with my recovery and to give him more time with his new daughter.

of course, all the family members and friends are thoroughly enjoying anna as well. we've had such heartwarming visits. the grandparents -- grandma and grandpa (my parents) and nana (dave's mom) -- have been completely enchanted by her. all the aunts and uncles are equally enthralled by her little self. we are so grateful for all the love from everyone we know. it means that our little girl will be well taken care of all her days, and we couldn't want more than that.

but, with every happy story, a little sadness must fall... our little anna jae is a fussy kid. she has been since day one. we've done a good job of working on her sleeping habits, and she's doing much better there, but she's still fussy. she cries often, much of the time for no apparent reason. we do all the usuals -- make sure her diaper is changed, make sure she's fed, etc. -- to no avail. she's just unhappy. then last night/early this morning, anna threw up during her feeding time. all over herself, all over me, and she threw up everything in her system. poor thing! i spent the rest of the morning up, trying to make her comfortable. i have paid close attention to everything since then, and consulted my baby books. and it seems like she has all the markings of acid reflux. =( it would explain a lot... the all-day fussing, the inconsolable crying, the inability to sleep on her back, and her fits that occur at least once a day during breastfeeding. i think she's suffering, and it breaks our hearts. it has made me cry several times today... i hate the idea of her being in pain and neither of us being able to help.

the pediatrician gets a call tomorrow, and hopefully we'll be able to see if this is indeed acid reflux. in the meantime, we're trying to make her as happy as can be. poor anna. =(

3 comments:

jodi said...

Aw, I'm really sorry she's suffering. Remember though that - like with all parents - her actual suffering is probably 1/100th what YOUR suffering is seeing her suffering! I hope your Dr. will be able to figure it all out and help the lil one out.

Meredith said...

Oh honey, I'm so glad you both are taking to parenthood like that! It really is the most incredible feeling in the world, isn't it? You just don't know until you're there. My love for Gabriel absolutely consumes me, and it seems you feel the same way about your daughter, and that's wonderful.

I'm sorry she might have acid reflux, but I think it's easily fixable. Definitely call the ped and see what he/she has to say about it. You are such a good mommy, as we all had no doubt you'd be!

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear about the potential reflux issues. Hopefully a little zantac will help her feel better with that and its not the dreaded colic.

But if it is and you need any helpful hints or an ear... you know where to find me. Got a bag full of tricks that helped us settle an extremely fussy baby and cope with that stress. Its almost been a year, but its still very fresh in the memory! :)

Best of luck at your appointment!